Sam, you obviously browse this place from time to time. And it is a slow moving board, in the end. So, perhaps today, perhaps 3 months from now, you'll stumble upon this thread.
Let this thread serve as a reminder, that the final redemption arc, whether it happens now or 20 years into the future, is still an option.
I'm gonna do my best not to sound like a faggot, but, if you truly became enlightened, by taking LSD or shrooms in a controlled environment while actually having positive thoughts towards humanity and letting your ego die, you can always gain a new audience by sharing your raw emotions and you have boundless talent willing to work if you let go of your vision a little bit, obviously none of your projects have been a success. Just let people who adore you work on their own passions and use your image ("icon") as a way to promote their work. Instead of trying to cash in on niche communities like bronies, just be humble and let people work while you promote this, sharing the royalties.
I know you hate LSD and shrooms and think anyone who takes them is a retard, and the experience itself is pretty retarded, but in that moment of retardation when you experience the fear of your own consciousness dying, you start to focus on what matters.
Look, I know it sucks to have your anonymity stripped away, but you can salvage so much from your online history if you put politics aside and reach to content creators in a humble fashion. Godspeed Sam.