Hi guys, I just wanted to lay down some of the things that can happen to you when you're not serious about it and what happens when you've been consuming porn for years.
That being said, your judgement on my actions would justified and if you people deem me a degnerate, I understand.
When I was a kid, I got molested by my uncle, and throughout the years, that memory was blocked out, a memory so painful and traumatazing that it left me doing things that I would never have imagined.
My porn consumption started out when I was very young, at the age of 11-12, it started out just finding some flash games and those new grounds meet n' fuck game if you remember.
But as the years went on, it got worse, fetishes got more absurd and counter to my nature and it got to the point where my number fetish was shemale and gay porn.
I would go on cam sites and talk to old men who fetishized teenage boys and have chatted with them on cam when I was underage.
Granted this addiction was a great source of shame and excitement, the more I did it, the more I though about meeting some of these men, not because I was attracted to them but because I wanted to feel something besides the shame and focus on the excitement.
I never did meet those people though, thank god. But a couple of years later I found myself in gay chats chatting with the same teenage boys that I was, I told myself well since I did it, it's not that big of a deal.
And then I started chatting with this gay guy and he incited me to download Grindr, and then that was just the start of the end. I met up with men near my area, and after each encounter, I felt more sick to my stomach, but the porn was always there, inciting me to do something more… always something more.
Then my infatuation with trannies just got worse, I started hiring trans escorts to humiliate me and degrade me, because as I saw myself I was a lost case, not deserving to be happy or just be straight.
Fucking years went on, now I'm 25 and every of my sexual partners have been men, even though, everytime that I did this, I just asked myself what is wrong with me, I don't even like doing thisPost too long. Click here to view the full text.